Hes Back

So an ex is in town and it is taking my all to not call, text or even bother with him. But honestly , it is hard!

I made the mistake of  contacting the past yet again and ironically was having a great repertoire with  him a week before he was coming back into town. No sooner did he get my hopes up , he disappeared! Which now  has left me with this empty hole inside my heart. Granted I should have known better and should not have gotten my hopes up but as usual i fell into his dysfunctional trap. He entertained me yet again with the idea of him and possibly meeting  up with him while he was in town and just before I could absorb it all up ..Bam he disappeared. Contact on his part diminished and I was left wondering what I did wrong? We had a great conversations between us for two whole months before his arrival and a week before he was supposed to hop on a plane his instant messages, picture msgs and texts stopped! WTF happened? Did I do something wrong? I don’t get it!!!!!

Did he do this on purpose?

Why is it that men like to play this game! Because we allow it? Because they can get away with it? It frustrates me that this whole cat and mouse thing . Why work me up for a couple of months or so and when it is time to step up to the plate you chicken out? So I am left with this question ..Was it a test and what should I do? Should I pretend he never came and that our conversations were just made up in my head? Or should I play into this game of cat and mouse…ARGH I just want to scream!